Some girl who is recovered from anorexia posted before and after recovery photos on Facebook which was so fucking triggering so I said something and just urgh. She’s all like “I’m don’t want attention I just want to raise awareness”.
She went on the ED section of Supersize vs Superskinny I mean who does that unless they want attention? That show is so warped and not educational when it comes to EDs, it’s all about shock factor not reality and… thats another topic for another time.
Anyway so that and now posting thinspo comparisons on Facebook and she doesn’t seem to care if it effects anyone negatively she just wants attention from everyone else.
It’s not good for ED awareness anyway because it just enforces the stereotype of you have to be emaciated to have an eating disorder which is bullshit because you can be any weight shape and size.
Then some bitch I went to school with liked one of her comments to me like it’s her business. Learn what your talking about bimbo then maybe you will be entitled to an opinion but she has no idea what it’s like to have an ED or how that post effects somebody who isn’t recovered so she can fuck off.
Also what irritates me is she was only sick for like a year. I’ve been struggling for 6 and am only just starting to get somewhere with recovery. Do I get any praise or pats on the back for doing so? No. So why should she.
This whole thing has just made me really angry and triggered and I can’t go to sleep now.
Just had a long talk and cuddle with my mum but I don’t feel any better.
I feel so empty inside.
Evidently I can’t continue reading Allegiant right now because this Tris / Tobias relationship makes me want to hang myself so instead I’m going to try and watch AHS.
Tried not being sad but it doesn’t work so might aswell just give in to it. Trying to pretend I’m ok its just exhausting.
Just saw on fb that he is at wimbledon.
1) it hurts that he’s out having a good time today and i’m like this.
2) wimbledon just reminds me of being inpatient because its all that was on tv or talked about for 2 weeks and it was really close to where I was and its just bringing back lots of memories.
Ever kind of wish someone could see your blog?
Like you would never give it to them or whatever but in some way you wish they knew how you felt?